First Time

Grabbed a six pack, lit a cigarette and went to the porch.
Sunday evening. Nothing to do in this hot summer night but look at the stars of the moonless sky.
The sound was not of cars or people but nature´s night owl. If it wasn't for the smooth scent of food, coming from my neighbors, i could close my eyes and believe to be in the middle of some form of forest or prairie, instead of the outskirts of a huge city.

Maybe the whole world is in a numb stage. Dining while watching some ordinary show in the television... except for me.
As i pull the ashtray towards me, i feel full awake, but never saw her coming. I never did.

- Hey there, neighbor. Could you spare me one?

I just stood, looking at her. She leaned towards me, touching my arm with her breast, my face with her hair and filling my world with her peach shampoo. She said something (that i didn't manage to listen) grabbed a beer and a cigarette. I watched her starting to smoke, expelling the air in circles of smoke from her mouth. We sat there looking at each other, both voiceless. "Always" is an absolute statement that i don't believe, but that exists. Because every time of everyday is "always" and "always" dwells in me the will to look at her face, at her body. Notice all the details that make her what she is.

I know this woman since she was a child. We grew up together. To say that i was in love with her was an understatement. It was a bigger than life feeling. I dreamed with her both sleeping and wide awake.

The beer has its toll and the need to relieve was growing on me. I got up, scared of loosing that moment, and went inside the house.
- Got to pee. Don´t go anywhere. - Said to her with a smile.
- I´ll be here.

In the hurry to return, i reached the toilette, not closing the door. One hand in the wall, both eyes closed. Hoping for some kind of way to do it faster. After what seemed 2 hours it stopped. While washing my hands, i noticed a figure on the mirror. She was watching me. Like always,
i never saw her coming. I never did.

- Girl. You said, you'd wait for me. Why didn't you?
- I am tired of waiting on you.

She slowly walked towards me, i felt my mouth opening in dazzle. Was i awake? Dreaming?
Slowly, she reached me. Approached her lips to mine, keeping them just an inch away. saw the depth of her eyes.
She pressed her body against mine, she felt my arousal and pressed even harder.

I tried to kiss her mouth but she avoided it. Left me and went to the toilette entrance, Closing both the door and the light.

A darkened room, on a darkened night.

Her hand reached me first, the peachy smell of her hair overtook my common sense while she whispered - SHHH - on my ear - Don't move.

Slowly took off my shirt, kissed my nipples, bit my shoulder, felt all my body with her hands.
it stopped.

I heard the sound of my shorts reaching the ground than silence again.
She seemed to hesitate.
I stood idle.

Suddenly i felt her tongue on my sex. Very slowly she licked every bit of my penis, up and down. She than grabbed it with her hand, pointing at her face, and swallowed it all at once.
Always slowly, she moved my penis in and out of her mouth. It felt good, so good.

As i started moaning in pleasure, i grabbed her hair and made her do it faster. She repelled my hand after a while but kept increasing the speed.
I clung the sink with the strength i always wanted to hold to her.
She kept on doing the right thing, the right way, making me moan harder and harder.

I lost my mind in pleasure, held her hair again and screamed all my pleasure out in to her mouth.
Panting, i dropped her hair and supported myself in the sink.
She rose, opened the tap, spit some mouth and without a word left my house, leaving me in the dark.

Left me bat i was not alone, in my head Ella Fitzgerald sang "cheek to cheek".

"Heaven, I'm in heaven
And my heart beats so that I can hardly speak
And I seem to find the happiness I seek
When we're out together dancing cheek to cheek
Heaven, I'm in heaven(...)"